A Date, That I Want,..

At the beginning of the night and all i wanted to do was writing something,.
and here it is,.

The Most Teenager problem,..
Date,..
(It is not our 'biggest' problem, but it still 'big' for me)

Well,..
I had the idea to talk about 'date' when i was on my way home,..
I thought that,. I want to write something,.
I want to post another entry to my blog,..
And it had to be something about me,.
Had to be something that trouble me, or something that i like,.
And here it is,..
My 'Big' Trouble,..
Date,..
(Wow)

And i am here talking about 'Date' from the standpoint of 'Haven't got any/Haven't experience it',
So Why i wanted it/troubled me,.
Because i thought that it (Date) was something that could revitalize me after a rough day,
The Girl who would be my 'Date' would be the 'Dearest one to me' and i would have this thought inside of my mind too, "She will be there for me, so i have to got there to,"
That is why i wanted it,..
I wanted someone that could be my courage to do something,.
               someone that could calm me after a rough time,.
               someone that could calm this anxiety of mine,..
               someone that could share her problem with me
               someone that I could share my problem with too,..
               someone that I could share my dreams with,..
           someone that was so special that made me didn't want to die yet so i could be there,..
Beside her,.
Spending the rest of our day together,. Alone,..


Someone that could make me think, that, It Is Love,..


(Gosh,.. it was cringey,..(But i have written it this far(And i mean,.. I am cringy,.)))


And why i haven't got any date,.
Was it because of my appearance,.
Was it because of my lake of courage,.
All i knew that it was because of me,.


Oh,. well,..
That was me,.
Talking about date,.
Talking about why i want/need it,..
Talking about why i hadven't got any,..
Talking about another thing about me,..

-Diaz


(It ended up with me pondering as i wrote this entry(also ended up as 'Curhat'))
(Gosh,. I want it)